basimibnishaq:

Without you I would have lost my way a thousand times.

I’ve thought about you a lot this year, and a lot of it has made me really sad. I miss you a lot, and I know I wasn’t always perfect and I made a lot of mistakes. I wish I could have fixed things back then and saved us both a lot of pain. Life continues to be strange without you, and it probably always will, but I don’t know what to do about it.

Every time I feel like things are okay between us, I’m surprised by the opposite. I guess I always had a hard time knowing how you felt sometimes. I wish we could talk it out and be there for each other.

I remember taking a shower one day, and daydreaming that maybe somehow we would end up crossing paths again. But I dunno, that’s my problem, I was always daydreaming. Even back then, I fantasized about finally being together but the real world was always getting in my way.

I’ll never feel the way I felt about you for anyone else, I don’t think it’s possible. It makes me frantic and makes me feel broken that I can’t summon those feelings for people who are also here now. It always felt like destiny when we were together, like everything would just always work out, and when it finally didn’t, I didn’t know what to do. I believed in you, and did everything I could. I loved harder than I will ever allow myself to love someone else again because it destroyed me. And so I guess I just don’t know what any of that means. If timing is all there is to it, then my clock is broken. I wish I could fix things that I’ll never be able to.

hiphopatihop:

Newport, CA

be-sex:

“Develop a strong opinion about yourself so that you don’t accidentally start believing what others say about you.”

— Akin Olokun
(via deeplifequotes)

eenjolras:

how I learned photoshop:
I clicked on a lot of things.

floralls:

by Irina Iriser

worldsworstfather:

i love it when people say “must you?” both because it makes me feel like i’m in a period drama and because yes, i absolutely must